Before I was saved I breathed in the air of common grace, grace that is filled with the creation knowledge of Him. It was poison to my lungs. I flopped around like a caught fish on the deck, breathing grace but longing for the murky waters to envelop me once again, the weeds wrapping around my head, because I loved the darkness. (cf Jonah 2:5b)
And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. (John 3:19).
as it is written:
None is righteous, no, not one;
no one understands;
no one seeks for God.
And yet He loved me, a sinner, and set me upright, washed me, gave me common grace and and added saving grace to my soul.
For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. (Romans 8:2).
After salvation I breathe in the sweetness of special grace, the savor of Jesus and His sanctifying work of atonement. The Light came.